Thursday, August 17, 2006
i read something somewhere and my heart weighs a ton now. i've been too insensitive. all three of us had. we were so intent on making that decision, and so sure that we were right. we always think we're right. perhaps we had been too oppressive. we had never realised. coz we had never been in the shoes of theirs. i feel so apologetic now. for the misery i've brought to them.
i still do not regret making that decision. and never will. but i feel really really really bad for not being more understanding. i still vividly remember those little discussions we had along the classroom corridors, on the way home, at meals, in fact, almost everytime we saw each other. we always started off being so hopeful and determined to make a difference, but those conversations always ended up with no conclusion. and nothing was ever done. even if we did something, i think it was useless.
the question that left us baffled for 3 yrs, even now, "why is there a this unbreakable barrier between us? no matter how hard we tried."
now i understand. from their point of view. perhaps its true that we're such failures at HR, because we were too enclosed in the little world of our own.
i thought that great event had brought us closer to at least 2 of them. but it isn't really the case. it brought them misery too. the feeling of being the common enemy.
i'm sorry. but i still want to say, you have been great. posted @ 8:45 PM