tales that come true

Thursday, November 30, 2006

reasons for me to get well

1. i want to go ophir!!!

2. i hate the stupid eeky yucky cough medicine.

3. i'm sick and tired of doing nothing but sleeping ALL DAY. though i have to admit that i quite enjoy it at first. =/

4. i seriously seriously need to get started on my work, if not i'll fail As nxt yr! ahhh.

5. i haven't been practising dizi for 2 whole weeks! and haven't gone to lesson for 3 weeks.

6. i miss the outdoors! i can feel my whole body turning into flabs that just sink into the sofa for every second tt i sit on it.

7. i don't like my sexy voice!

8. i don't want this to turn into some dengue thing like what the doctor said MIGHT be if the fever persists till nxt week. but i doube so. my fever IS subsiding, right?? T_T

9. i want to go ophir!

10. i want to go ophir!

posted @ 10:18 PM

Sunday, November 26, 2006

~~strangely~~, i'm ~~happily~~terribly sick. it means that i ~~can finally take a break without feeling guilty~~have finally broken down.

posted @ 10:01 PM

Saturday, November 25, 2006

sometimes its okay to get thrown aside and picked up again coz sometimes i do that too. it feels like making use of the person but maybe its just meant to be like that, because you can't find a similar metaphor to replace that feeling/that kind of guilt. if you are close enough, you will understand and wouldn't mind being chucked away for a while. you will understand that its hard keeping up with everything at the same time and you don't mind being the sacriface.

posted @ 9:02 PM

Friday, November 24, 2006

feels cursed lately.

the car exhaust fumes, unbearable heat and sudden downpour during land recee on thurs left me all nauseous. even up till now, i feel like puking every now and then. so if i really do, don't scream.

after starving for one day due to my empty wallet, i got home and realised i was staring straight in the eye of a BIG FAT lizard comfortably seated in my dinner. ahhh..there goes and dinner and my appetite.

why do we not get what we want most of the time? or is it because of the inavalabilty of something that our desire for it increases?

anyway, it started pouring when i wanted and needed to get home quickly. i got drenched again. well, it may not be an entirely bad thing, coz waddling in the puddles is fun. especially after the ubin experience. and i think repeatedly getting drenched by thunderstorms has improved my immune system. i haven't gotten a serious headache for the past few times i got caught in downpours, which would have been impossible in the past. my head used to throb even at the slightest drizzle. hmmm. or another explanation may be a greater calamity yet to come. recall how there's always tranquility before the great storm? hoho.

following the wet and yucky incidents, was the attack of my favourite fruit. i was picturing myself happily munching on a crispy red african fuji apple, and i did take the first bite. but just before i swallowed the first mouth, i realised the heart was black. ewwwwwwwww...-spits spits spits-

then i decided not to do anything else that might result in self attempted murder. e.g.: sitting in front of the com, touching only the keypad and the mouse. who knows, a super mega big red ant bit me on my leg. must have got stuck onto my leg when i waddled through the puddles. and it clinged on even after i washed my feet. stupid red ant.

ahh. why am i ranting about such trivial matters? i feel really tired now. my eyelids and getting really heavy...

posted @ 11:22 PM

Saturday, November 18, 2006

after 2 consecutive days of shoe hunt in queensway, i'm getting quite sick by the overload of shoes. maybe i'm spoilt for choice. maybe i'm being too picky. maybe i spent too much time sauntering along the endless racks of shoes. but seriously, not one caught my eye. with that i meant that not one made me fall madly in love with it. sigh...nothing beats my faithful orange gel cumulus VII.

how hard is it to part with an old friend? Very.

i'm gonna wait till feb when the new models arrive. ahhh. maybe i'll forget about how emotional i got with this old pair of shoe and start swooning over the new possession. i feel so cruel. but i realised i've been doing that all my life.

旧的不去，新的不来。

is that true??

does it only apply to our material possessions, or even people?

as i expand my circle of friends, i find it harder to juggle between everyone. i feel like a rubber band taut between many hands. sometimes i feel superficial and then sorry for acting that way. but being guilt-stricken doesn't help. i need substantial actions to salvage the damage i've done. but what?

is it a way of life to forget the old and embrace the new? why is it that best friends sworn to stay with each other till the end of time in the earlier stages of one's life often get thrown to the back of one's mind by the time 5 yrs have flown pass. maybe even shorter. there may be exceptions, but how many are there? friends are so important in one's life, but why do adults tell me they don't remember much of the friends they made in their school days.

i hope there's no expiry date for something so precious to me.

posted @ 10:21 PM

Friday, November 17, 2006

ITC 2006 - Instructors' Training Camp, or rather, Instructors' Training Chalet.

It was pure fun and laughter, which entails frolicking in the sea, mud wind and darkness, to feeling sheltered under the meticulous care and concern of the qms. (:

although it was quite far-fetched from the kind of training we would have needed to morph from the obedient little trainees to decisive leaders, it was a great time for us to know more about each other. at least i did. these 3 days flew pass like a dream, but it made me change my perceptions of quite a few individuals, for the better. our individual skills may be important, but bonding as a batch is as of equal status. without cohesiveness within the batch, we would not be able to strive for a higher level together. ITC came at a right time when some of us thought that oac was losing its YL spirit. though we may not have unleashed the ultimate spirit we showed during YL, it was a great start to the bright future i forsee. so in a way, the camp did serve its purpose.

day 1-
dragon boating. it was far from muscle aching. thou i guess mou did manage to gek quite a few muscles. haha. its possible with someone who geks even when sleeping. =/ alright..jk.

but it was fun nevertheless! especially the merlion and viking parts. hahaha. chao exciting! =)

day 2-

ezoac clean and all set for the excitement awaiting us on ubin - the familiar yet foreign island. (:

LAND EX!! i'm glad to say that we were blessed with wonderful weather. i'm serious. haha. and i'm happy to say that it was a success. thanx jingkai and lianjoo! and everyone else. i realised how much the satisfaction of a planner actually depends greatly on the response of the recipients. i was quite worried when i saw the dark clouds cowering over us, and big rain drops started making music on our helmets. but i was even more disheartened when i thought i saw the 'what kind of land ex is this' face.
THANKFULLY biking in alternating rain and shine wasn't such a bad experience. in fact, i think waddling in the mud puddles and risking our lives speeding down those killer steep and wet slopes became a highlight of the expedition. haha. whats outdoors without a little risk?

the fearless and commendable pair who chionged far ahead of us on a no gear double bike. haha. IMBAR!

the legendary GROUP 2. hehe.

LA!!

girls of group 2.

we look childish but happieeeee (:

the navas in grp 2! =)

accomplished upon conquering the WEST and the rain, we headed off for the east...
and returned victorious!

eric's feet was well-nourished with the essense of tuna, mud spa, and enhanced with the fragrance of thai coconut. more forutnate than the children in africa. haha.

the 32nd LAND CHIEFS!! =D

EZOAC!

day 3-
rockclimbing. thats where most of my muscle ache orginated from. i regretted not trying the routes. argh. but i realised everytime i go rockclimbing, its a different feeling, a different kind of fun. maybe its the improvement everytime i go, mabbe its the people.

anw, nava started the trend of scaling the wall tgt. and everyone else started following. haha. here's the authentic one =)

after tent washing and cleaning up. we were all waiting in the OPs room for aaron. for many, ITC ended with this.

but for the remaining 5 who faithfully stayed on... we had ice-cream treat from aaron! yayy..thx aaron. haha. =)

ITC rawks!! =D

posted @ 9:16 PM

Monday, November 13, 2006

i'm like as black as the background of my blog. arghhh. hahaha..okok. not tt exaggerating, but i'm seriously damn dark now. my dad's on the verge of disowning me. haha. but nvm..i guess its all worth it. kayaking was reallyreally fun ytd, especially with the company of entertaining pple (irritaing at times when they unscrew the stopper and start pouring water into ur kayak -.-) oh another reason for my happily tanned limbs was due to the strong beautiful sunrays that filtered through the cumulus clouds(tts what its called, tracee. haha.), blessing us with such wonderful weather on the sea. it was the first time in ages i've seen the sun by the beach. and i loved it. (:

another photo to add to our jtf collection (:

congrats xinyi on completing her 1* kayaking! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! =)

awwww...so sweet =)

finally its not fungg who meets her long lost primary sch friend, but ME! (: haha. to think that we both studied in the same sch for 6 yrs and have never spoken to each other before. but still we found each other familiar. hmmm. and to think that we both live in the west, but ended up meeting in the east. interesting how fate works.

ITC's tmr!! and i havent packed! haha. i think it will be fun! i hope it will be. yea..i'm looking fwd to it! will be back in 3 days. hehe (:

posted @ 10:04 PM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

posted @ 1:25 PM

Sunday, November 05, 2006

almost a month since i last blogged. i've finally decided to blog again. i realise that this is turning into a diary where i record my progress at lessons. more than often, its after lessons that i get the urge to spill my emotions here.

so...i finally called yin lao shi on wed and booked a slot with him today. my heart was thumping while the phonecall was trying to get through. haha. the trepidition, guilt, anticipation - i've been through this umpteen times. even though its merely a call to lao shi, the turbulence of emotions in me is definitely much more than one can imagine. the first time i called, it got to voice mail only after 3 rings. i was excited for a moment, only to realise that its laoshi's monotonous voice recording. but it was great hearing his voice again. haha. when i finally got thru, i was so elated that he still remembers my name. uh...-duh-. he has caller id on his phone. but but but...he didn't delete me from his list!!! hahaha. i thought that he was going to disown me ok! i even dreamt abt it. =/ but pheww...he sounded happy to get my call. haha. maybe coz he was in a good mood. but nvm..i shall be contented. =)

so. i went for lesson today. was planning to practise a little more before i present my pathetic state before him. but regretfully, i didn't make the effort to do so. lesson was supposed to be at 4pm. but he called in the morning and changed it to 2pm. i got all flustered! coz i had pw in the morning, which means that i won't have as much time to prepare myself, both mentally and skillwise. however i soon realised that last minute practising won't help much either. so i went with an open heart. and for the first few times, i went early. one of my earliest i must say. and hr earlier. -.-''' reason being i remembered the time wrongly. haha. so i popped by at 1pm instead of 2pm.

he wasn't satisfied with me of coz. i was disappointed, with myself. but it was expected. so there were no tears to push back, no sadness to hide. instead, i was smiling. haha. i guess really miss laoshi a lot. he sounded like a doctor, his voice was therapeutic. and i was the patient, who needed an emergency rescue. i'll perservere. yes i will. next time if u see me online, chase me off to practise my flute. (:

anyway, one of the reasons why i havent been blogging is coz i've been living in the world of fantasy for the past few weeks. hooked onto goong, and then some other drama that my dear friend has been bugging me to watch for weeks. yea...and so i've been sleeping late, or rather, early for the past few weeks. resulting in panda eyes. O.O haha. i ought to snap out of the unreal and get a life! ahh..no more dramas for me. =)

in the midst of being drowned in k-dramas, i got to feel nature again. one was bike hike and the other was kayaking. haha. felt great to be outdoors again. though i ought to be more careful everytime i bike. seems that i've been cursed to fall every single time i get on a bike. hmmmm.

i've been put to the test of perseverence quite a few times. but i'm sad to say, i haven't been performing well. i might have appeared strong-willed to some, but to me, it was just mediocre. i could have pushed myself harder, i could have done better.

anyway, here's the beautiful sunrise that we almost missed...