Tuesday, September 05, 2006
i'm really getting more and more baffled by some things and people. maybe coz i'm just outta their league. but somethings are better unsaid? i think showing it too much sometimes portrays an image of superficiality.
i have always shown respect for them, but they got worse. my tolerance level is almost reaching the critical limit. one day i may just wake up realising that i do not know them at all. i must admit that there's a barrier between us, even though we may appear to be very close. it all comes back to the point about superficiality. what appears to others may not be what it really is. who knows what goes on behind those plastered smiles and laughter, hugs and pats on the shoulder. nobody. nobody knows what evil thoughts tt chunk of 'thing' enclosed within ur skull is gernerating right at this moment. hm...scary.
ok..i digressed a little. but point is, i think i'm becoming more and more superficial, when i'm with them. like an automated robot that responses as programmed. and i don't like it. the more we hang out, the stronger the feeling gets. like i'm deluding myself into accepting what i don't really agree with. sometimes i'm just faking. i know it. but why don't i say it?
overdosage of it really makes me sick.
and you don't even practise what you preach. posted @ 10:50 PM