Sunday, November 05, 2006
almost a month since i last blogged. i've finally decided to blog again. i realise that this is turning into a diary where i record my progress at lessons. more than often, its after lessons that i get the urge to spill my emotions here.so...i finally called yin lao shi on wed and booked a slot with him today. my heart was thumping while the phonecall was trying to get through. haha. the trepidition, guilt, anticipation - i've been through this umpteen times. even though its merely a call to lao shi, the turbulence of emotions in me is definitely much more than one can imagine. the first time i called, it got to voice mail only after 3 rings. i was excited for a moment, only to realise that its laoshi's monotonous voice recording. but it was great hearing his voice again. haha. when i finally got thru, i was so elated that he still remembers my name. uh...-duh-. he has caller id on his phone. but but but...he didn't delete me from his list!!! hahaha. i thought that he was going to disown me ok! i even dreamt abt it. =/ but pheww...he sounded happy to get my call. haha. maybe coz he was in a good mood. but nvm..i shall be contented. =)
so. i went for lesson today. was planning to practise a little more before i present my pathetic state before him. but regretfully, i didn't make the effort to do so. lesson was supposed to be at 4pm. but he called in the morning and changed it to 2pm. i got all flustered! coz i had pw in the morning, which means that i won't have as much time to prepare myself, both mentally and skillwise. however i soon realised that last minute practising won't help much either. so i went with an open heart. and for the first few times, i went early. one of my earliest i must say. and hr earlier. -.-''' reason being i remembered the time wrongly. haha. so i popped by at 1pm instead of 2pm.
he wasn't satisfied with me of coz. i was disappointed, with myself. but it was expected. so there were no tears to push back, no sadness to hide. instead, i was smiling. haha. i guess really miss laoshi a lot. he sounded like a doctor, his voice was therapeutic. and i was the patient, who needed an emergency rescue. i'll perservere. yes i will. next time if u see me online, chase me off to practise my flute. (:
anyway, one of the reasons why i havent been blogging is coz i've been living in the world of fantasy for the past few weeks. hooked onto goong, and then some other drama that my dear friend has been bugging me to watch for weeks. yea...and so i've been sleeping late, or rather, early for the past few weeks. resulting in panda eyes. O.O haha. i ought to snap out of the unreal and get a life! ahh..no more dramas for me. =)
in the midst of being drowned in k-dramas, i got to feel nature again. one was bike hike and the other was kayaking. haha. felt great to be outdoors again. though i ought to be more careful everytime i bike. seems that i've been cursed to fall every single time i get on a bike. hmmmm.
i've been put to the test of perseverence quite a few times. but i'm sad to say, i haven't been performing well. i might have appeared strong-willed to some, but to me, it was just mediocre. i could have pushed myself harder, i could have done better.
anyway, here's the beautiful sunrise that we almost missed...
us and the beautiful sunrise =)
one of the best part of bike hike was seeing my dear four eleveners!! haha..an unexpected delight =)
this zai girl who's he organizer of the bike hike (:
this is the first time i smiled in all the photos after a strenuous night of cycling
and i really want to thank this girl for coming with me (:
posted @ 9:54 PM