Saturday, December 16, 2006
my mood today was like a valley. it started out high and got low and i got perpetually high again, after watching the videos frm disneyland!! omg!! i want to go!!!! =) i guess nobody can be immune to the healing powers of those beautiful colours and cheery songs tt go on and on and on. hahaha. i was smiling at the com like an idiot!! and i kept rewatching them! i miss camping in front of the tv and watching disney cartoons non-stop all day!!! haha..nt tt i'm not trying to do it now...but kids central cartoon sux! de tv is boooooooring!!! hahaha.
talk abt cartoons. i was watching this little indian girl sitting opp me on de bus today. 0k..she was sitting on her dad's lap la. and her mum was sitting nxt to them. i was just observing how much she resembled each of her parents...and i still vaguely rmb. she had the eyebrows, eyes and mouth of her dad and nose of her mum. she was so tiny her features were like miniature replicas of her parents'. i wonder what fascinated me so much that i kept watching...until the parents noticed me watching and started laughing. haha. they look so blissful together and i really miss those times i had with my parents. when i cld hug them, whisper 'i love you' in their ears...without feeling awkward. haha. maybe its just not a tradition in my family to do so. we show our care in more subtle ways.
but why shd i be tied down by traditions now when nothing mattered to me when i was younger? was it coz my mind hasn't been polluted by things such as tradition back then? or was it becoz i simply loved them soooo much? does it mean i love them lesser now? (this sounds harsh but its hard to rule out the possibility. hmmmm..probably in a different way)
i wonder if we'd get closer if i remembered all the fun times we had in the past. when i was still young and innocent. i hate de way my brain functions. why can't i rmb anything tt happened before school started feeding my brain with textbooks and notes and exams and grades. the most i made out of those times were flashes of a few seconds. and if i think carefully, they seem to have come frm impressions of photos. if there were no photos...wld i have remembered any of those? how sad it wld be if i were to forget everything abt my childhood. oh..and babies. i wonder if anyone has any memory of themselves as a baby. the only impression we get of babies are either from past photos, or grandma's stories, or watching other babies. why is there no recollection of the happiest time in one's life? sigh...
anw, i went to watch nac alone today. coz caina's flown off and the rest are doing cip. and dear gerrrrrrr...forgot abt it. haha. nvm...it was a nice experience being alone. was quite sad coz i missed the first grp!!! and omg!!! i missed dizi finals toooo!! just coz i was too lazy to confirm the timings again. it was at 9am on de 13th and i actually rushed there at 2pm on de 14th! thx. quite sad tt i missed out quite a lot this year. din get to watch prelims either. well...i've lost my chance.
i heard this song today. everytime i hear this song, i never fail to compare. and thou i hate to admit, i've yet to hear a better one. somehow...i've come to respect tt prsn more than dislike.
oh...anw after watching nac i was feeling quite down. and coz of all tt walking arnd my legs were tired and tt got me even more depressed. but later on de train there was this cute caucasian guy standing opp me! like super tall!!! hahaha...so i was a little amused by myself for being cheered up.
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flying to shanghai later!!! hahaha. its quite late/early now...but i can't sleep. and i probably wun sleep on de plane if there're nice movies =) nvm...mabbe they'll welcome me more if i look like their precious pandas. =)
i just hope my ankle wun give in. walked a lot today and it started aching.
take careee pple! see ya 8 days later. hehe.
posted @ 11:05 PM