Saturday, September 01, 2007
if it takes just one concert to rekindle my love for the dizi, does it mean(a) the concert was inspiring
(b) my passion for dizi is still strong and undying
(c) i miss lao shi A LOT
(d) i miss my dizi trio
(e) i'm fickle-minded
(f) life's been too boring lately
(g) i need to find peace and solace in the bamboo forest
(h) i'm guilt-stricken for abandoning my dizis
(i) ...
ok this question is actually pointless and the list answers will be never-ending. but it feels great forcing myself to 'face the music' that i've been avoiding for so long. at least now i know i've not entirely forsaken something i've spent the previous half of my life (up till now) cultivating.
i'm really glad i went for the concert. partly coz the concert was quite good, especially the fusion pieces, but more imptly, because of the inpiration and motivation it had given me. all of a sudden i felt obliged to return to lao shi's little studio and feel happy receiving his scoldings once again. happy because i know he means well and he cares. and even happier when i get his compliments, because they NEVER come easy. i was so glad he still remembers me when i called him that day. might not mean much to him, but it made my day. haha.
i really miss listening to lao shi play and watching him perform. he exudes this seh-ness that throws people off their seats. hahaha. XD (i'm sure caina and jaime wld agree with me) and even when he's not playing he radiates this charisma in his style of sloppiness that makes me hold him in high esteem. ok so much for swooning. pt is i really miss hearing good music live. its really enjoyable watching people perform on stage, especially those with an aura around them that overwhelms the audience. sometimes i enjoy the silence and little pauses in between the notes more than instances when the notes are played coz the silence allows what i just heard to fill up the emptiness around me and in me. and i think its harder to fill up the space with silence as grand as an orchestra than to fill it up with noise, isn't it?
9 yrs in co and i've been to quite a number of concerts. i realised that i cld classify them into 3 types.
1) A concert that ends on a high note, leaving me on an adrenaline rush. these are usually school concerts where you get rowdy groups of supporters shouting 'encore!' and random names of the performers. of coz the pre-requisite for this high level of energy to infect me is that the music must be good and worth listening to. sometimes i do get highly irritated by disturbances from the audience.
2) A concert that leaves me in a tranquil, pensive state. sometimes you don't need flamboyant loud drums or fluttering fingers running all over your instrument to impress the audience. in fact, being able to brainwash the audience with your soulful music and leave them in a trance is something even more remarkable. i still remember this particular concert that i went to sometime back where one sustained note on the flute was left resonating in my head for days. it was simply too beautiful. too intoxicating. my point of epiphany. the nxt time i remembered something so awe-inspiring was the last note of xingkong nyco played on 210405 (:
3) A lousy concert that spoils my day. once that you can't wait for it to end. sometimes the audience play a part as well.
its seldom that you come across a great concert that will leave an impact in your life, but its rewarding when you encounter something so priceless.
the past is something you should let go, but not something you have to forget.
posted @ 11:24 PM