Saturday, September 29, 2007
me and my baby.
when its all over, i'm suddenly overwhelmed by emotions. a mixture of happiness that comes from liberation, and sense of satisfaction and accomplishment, together with bouts of nostalgia. the past few weeks have been both nightmarish and a beautiful dream. a nightmare that i had wished so much to wake up from and now while looking back, i wish it had dragged on a little longer. everything's full of ironies, and thats what made it so memorable.
i'm proud to be an aep student. coz this coursework experience is seriously one that no other being could ever empathise with. i like the exclusivity of it. of us being special. though such status comes with more than just sacrifices for our prelims, but our sleep and sanity. haha. but with 16 other people singing looney tunes with you at the same time, and many caring teachers who never fail to get amused by our crazy antics, who are always there for us to exploit (it sounds wrong, but thats what we really do), how can i not love being part of this whole farmily.
the past few weeks have been a whirlpool. so many things were occuring at the same time my days and hours get mixed up. all i remember are long nights i spent cutting styrofoam and laughing my head off watching pow, zhengyou n kw perform their acapella. you know they actually sing and harmonize quite well, but the idiocy of the songs they sing, which comprises of repeating only one word most of the time, can't help but make me feel highly irritated yet amused at the same time. its hard not to give in to laughter. haha. and dear yingshi, who has totally lost herself in the midst of drilling perspex from day to night. we've always known that there's a crazy side to her, but we've never seen that unrestricted side of it. now that we've all got our first-hand account, we know when she needs her tranquilizer. haha. craziness is infectious. at the end of day 1, we were all running around the artroom screaming our lungs out and threatening to eat each other up in lieu of the late dinner that arrived only at 11pm. -.-"
we were so desperate we prayed to lyly for salvation. and zhengyou was the sacrifice. haha."every week we come to class and learn to accept each other oddities." -siewching
its the deviation of every individual that makes our class so special and unique. we're all so different and seemingly odd in our own ways (because we think so differently most of the time), but yet we blend so well, like some mixed fruit juice. in times of need, you really discover the sweetness in people. our love for each other touches me a lot. like when we were all struggling to complete the last touches of our coursework before the actual ACTUAL deadline (there's been too many scams), everyone was scuttering around helping each other. even those who were long done with theirs stayed on to help. they could have gone home to their long awaited comforting beds, but still their presence lingered around like the light of hope. thank you so much charm and zhengyou! for coming to me while i was on the verge of tears. for encouraging me to not forgo perfection in art even in times of urgency. and for climbing the ladder even though you were afraid. you never knew how much that meant to me. (:
there're many others to thank for. if i had a credit-roll, here's how it wld go...
MY AEP CLASSMATES for the sheer presence and support
karweng for bothering to rebutt my senseless arguments, for accomodating my messiness and unreasonibilities, for entertaining me, for everything...
sophia for being my moral support and for confiding in me. i'm still amazed at how alike we are.
shumin for being so supportive all the time. and for being such a strong girl - it pushes me to be brave like you!
zhengyou for the late night chats and entertaining songs.
MY DEAR FRIENDS who never once refused my call for help
aaron though you never really got to help me in the end, i'm still grateful for you readily offering your help. they meant much to me (:
fungmin and tracee
my flower girls! thank you for the love you sent and the help you've brought. the swing is really beautiful! (:huijin for doing such a gd job painting my walls. and plz don't feel guilty abt that broken angel anymore. it won't die coz its got a healer like me (:
shiuyuen
for being so adventurous and risk dying for art. for always encouraging me. my artwork wouldn't have been the way it is without your help (: and sorry that you got injured again and again. =/yvonne
for being so enthusiastic in helping me out!eugene, hanyun, lujie, waikuan, wenhui, zongxiao for visiting me at the art gallery that day. that was a pleasant surprise. and your company mattered a lot. (:
o6a13 for responding so readily to my recruitment drive. haha the numbers that turned up was shocking! but touching. thank you guys! (:
MY DEAR AEP TEACHERS who were there for us day and night
ms kee you were our pillar of support and security. without you, our future seemed vague and blur.
mr almeo tan for being so fatherly and for being SO helpful. thank you for helping me get materials and fix the lights even though your back was aching. take care mr tan! (:
mr tan siang yu thank you for believing in me. i wouldn't have done it without your faith in me and my art. (:
mr lee for helping us get food and doing the jobs when we girls need the man. haha. (:
mr kwek for being so enthusiastic in helping me out all the time and providing useful suggestions. i was really touched when u offered to help me cut the styrofoam that day. but i'm glad i decided to do it myself coz ultimately, i want it to be my work.
the T.A. for sharing your passion for art with me. the short chat with you was inspiring.
not going home for 4 days, not bathing for some days...sounds uncannily like YLTC. in fact it is one. a mentally grilling one. everytime after such a camp, you wish you were back there again enduring those psychological torments. haha.
i've grown so used to the artblock these past few days i've become really detached from the world outside. as i stepped out of the artblock towards the class benches for the first time after so long, the sun suddenly felt much brighter and the people around me quite unfamiliar. its like i've just been thrown out of the dungeon back into light again. and i'm stil gradually getting accustomed to the old life again. i don't really want to revert back to the old life, coz it means having to accept reality once more. courework's over and that means no more excuses from lessons. i want to continue my escapade in my dreamland.
posted @ 12:15 AM